I know that the beginning of this journey toward making peace with food and loving your body can feel HAAAARRRRRDDDDD. When you've been used to setting goals and abiding by external rules and steps and plans....this process can feel like a mess. Your brain hates mess. Your mind what to stay the course - R&R, repeat, recycle - keep doing things as they've always been done. Your brain is basically Walter Matthau - waving a fist in the air and shouting at you about the good ole days and "get off the frickin' lawn!!!".
Your brain DOESN'T like going into the unknown, the dark place you have to go to in order to actually behave differently.
And though each and every one of your messy, unsteady baby steps is turning the great cosmic universal wheels that WILL eventually lead to major transformation and change (no doubt about it! What you seek in earnest you will find!!!), it can be hard to see it when you're in the muck and your brain wants to pull the emergency brake.
So, I created a guided visualization for you. It's quick (5 mins-ish) and it will help you create a Future Embodied Memory. A rich, sensory memory of how you will feel and be when you have healed your relationship with food and body. A memory of the future.
Sound weird? It is. But it's also the type of visualization technique an elite athlete does before a big race/competition. Being able to VISUALIZE success leads to a greater chance of success....even when you have no idea what steps you'll need to take to get there.
Try the visualization and see what comes up for you. When you have created a meaningful Future Embodied Memory, meditate on that memory - the visual and the feeling of it - for 3-5 minutes every day. See how things shift for you....and be sure to let me know!